do i miss her? 🤔💔

 

From the title of this post, one may safely assume this to be about my love story or my one-sided love or whatever people wanna call it. But it isn't. The title is just there to generate a bit of curiosity and get a bit of engagement. Yeah, yeah, I'm hungry for the engagement and can't wait to become a social media influenza! 😜 Just kidding. CLICKBAIT!!! 😅😂

What is it about then? This is about the one question that I face the most.

Do I feel like I'm missing out on a lot of things by doing a distance graduation and along with that doing a course which is better known for its 'single digit' passing percentage and for sucking out entertainment from the lives of students?

There is no definite answer to this question according to me. At certain times, I feel YES is the answer and at other times NO. It sort of depends on the mood that I'm in. Like, if I'm content and happy with my learning and progress, I'd say NO. And, if I'm not happy with my learning, the answer would be a YES.

There was a lot of contemplation regarding this before arriving at this decision and I'm happy enough to explain this. CS as a course requires a lot of self-study and dedication as compared to any graduation course. Juggling both these and doing it offline would have at some point caused me troubles. Considering these things, I felt it would be better to say YES to online classes and prioritising CS. I knew I was going to miss out on the fun that is generally associated with colleges, the experiences, the learnings and the enjoyment. On the other hand, I was gaining more time for self-study and more importantly an elongated stay with my family which was much needed for me at that time.

Whenever I see my friends and the people I follow on social media post about their colleges and the fun they have, I do feel like 'maybe I should have given it a thought again' but then I just forget about it and get busy with my studies. The Instagram stories and posts, the WhatsApp status, the 'going outs', the parties, the love stories, the excitement and a whole array of different thing on one hand and hours and hours of exhausting studies, the pressure, the hard work and tons of self-doubt on the other. I was clear and I'm still clear. The former, though a strong temptation, are just evanescent thoughts. 🙂

While reading this a few people may feel like I'm prevaricating but I'm not. This is among those questions which have me confused about going this way or that. But for now, I'm clear about it and that's all that matters. 😌

And just for spicing up things a bit after this kinda heavy session of writing I'll answer the question in the title. YES, I do miss her at times🫣. But those times are as rare as something like England producing a spin friendly wicket or Bangladesh producing an absolute green deck🤪. If you're not a cricket afficionado, I'll wish you good luck finding out the answer. But in all seriousness, I not only miss her but also all others too. 

And just to let my readers know how much I miss her; I loved her like Test cricket, and she loved me back like T20 cricket. 😅

And a big thank you to my 'close friend' for actually suggesting me few good songs yesterday. Loved it! ❤️ I know I haven't replied to your messages but I surely will.