venting out my anger! 💢

Not sure in what context my readers are going to take this, but I feel it is important to put it here. Just because I don't react or respond or reply to the people mocking me or making me angry doesn't mean that I won't keep the silence forever. And today was a prime example of that. One of my cousins has been constantly mocking me about me not going to offline classes, about having zero interaction and all. This has been going on for a long while now and I didn't respond to it all this while. But something clicked today. I confronted him and made him cry. How? I'll let my readers guess that.

Over the last 10-11 years, I've worked on controlling my emotions, not letting them out in the public, trying to suppress it and at times simply ignoring those emotions. This has been possible largely due to the amount of cricket that I've played where been calm and composed is very important. My threshold of taunts, mockery and anger is quite high but after a certain point I lose all sanity. 

The only reason I'm writing this here is to just get rid of all the anger that had built up and as I'm typing this, I can feel it coming out. This is again another reason why I'm doing this blogging. The anger is slowly turning into a check point of thought. A check point of progress in the journey of being calm and composed at all times. 

On a different note, I'd love if someone, if any, could just suggest me good instrumental music preferably Indian Classical music. Hindustani or Carnatic. Listening to such music helps me get rid of negative thoughts and calms me down instantly.