Hey!
It's been a few days since I uploaded anything on my blog and hence, I feel I should. First and foremost, I have absolutely no idea what this blog is going to be about. I'll be adding some random things that I feel like sharing. Basically, I'll be sharing miscellaneous things for which I cannot do another blog post. So, here we go!
Industrial Visits and my emotions around it
It's almost November and winter is around the corner in the part of the world I live in. And with that, for most of batchmates an integral part of their college lives is about to happen. An Industrial Visit or IV of short. Basically, it is a college tour which I suppose most people look forward to when they join the college in the first year. However, I have no idea if it is true or not but going by the excitement around it, it definitely looks true. So, how does this affect me or how does this have any connection with how I'm feeling? Simple. People start posting their celebratory life and all the glamour surrounding them and when as someone who is constantly at home surrounded by books and papers with no entertainment looks at these photos, the feeling of missing out hits hard.
For the better part of my life, I've had no problems with what my batchmates have been doing in their lives, but it stings now especially seeing the people with whom I spent the last 2 years of my school life. Someone is going on a 4-day trip, someone on a 7-day trip. It does feel like a major missing in my life.
So, how am I dealing with it? Dealing with it in a positive way and staying focused is very important at the moment for me. I've been for the past few days, keeping myself totally busy with my academics and not looking at others' life but that isn't a permanent solution, right? For now, my plan is to just accept the fact that I cannot do much. With acceptance, comes a major sense of relief. It makes me feel like I'm sacrificing my enjoyment for this course and yes, I'm doing it!
What are my sources of motivation?
To be honest, lot of the motivation comes from the fire inside but there are moments where even that is not enough. In such moments, I try to take motivation from the life story of one of my close friends and a lot of other sources which I'm not really comfortable sharing with anyone at the moment. Maybe in the future I open up about these but for the time being let that stay a secret.
Apart from this, I try to connect my situations with that of elite athletes. We all love admiring athletes who have done well at any stage. We love to glorify their acts and talk about their determination, dedication and the hunger they have in them to achieve and bring laurels for their countries and their teams. This is the mindset I have. Instead of just blindly praising them and not learning anything, I try to do the latter a bit more. I try to give my best, cut off everything unwanted, put in the extra yards so that tomorrow when I look back, I don't have any regrets. I try to learn from the man, the myth, the legend, the great Sachin Tendulkar. His knock of 241* in Sydney against the Aussies in 2002 is the one I love the most in terms of the motivation factor. To not play his favorite shot, the cover drive, just because the Aussies had gotten him out in the same manner a few times during that tour. It takes a hell lot to have that level of mental fortitude and willpower. His words "mein akela ya tum 11'!!
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Why are you reading this!?
Since, you've started reading here you go!
A bit about my love life.
It's been more than a year since the incident. Nearly two to be precise. I would not exactly put this into the breakup category but yeah this definitely feels like one. I've been lucky to be associated with among the finest persons I've ever met. We are good friends now and were back then as well with few moments which would raise the question of "are they just friends". Honestly speaking, I've learnt a lot from the situationship/friendship that I had, and the learnings have all been on the nicer side and not the ones typically associated with heartbreaks. No crying, no removing display pictures, no drama. Yeah, but there was this one phase where I was just listening to songs related to breakups and sadness. But they are the ones I listen to on a daily basis. So, don't judge me on that part. I remember listening to tons of breakup songs all day without much thought and then a phase where I was not listening to songs but reminiscing those good memories. Looking back, I feel that was the best thing that could have happened to me. I don't have any regrets regarding that neither about the confession nor the subsequent detachment (I'm clearly lying!!) Don't judge me but here's the list of songs I used to listen to back in those times:
- Channa Mereya - Unplugged (sacchi mohabbat shayad wahi hai jisme junoon hai)
- Agar Tum Saath Ho
- Aise Kyun
- Kabira
- A few Anuv Jain songs (why are you being so judgmental!?😠)
I'm casually ignoring Arijit Singh like I don't even know him.
I'm not sure if you have realized or not, this blog only has 1 emoji and is pretty bland, just like my life. I want to add more emojis, but it takes away the emotions and hence I've refrained from using it. I don't know what I should title this blog as. Maybe something random and one which doesn't make sense (just like my blogs). Till I have another round of self-doubt and introspection of my daily activities, I wish you all the very best. Bye! Wishing you a great love life.
Edit 1: added the lyrics to the song Channa Mereya
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