Reaffirming the Why!

Hey!

Welcome back to my blog. I'm recovering from my illness and should be back on my feet within a couple of days. In the meanwhile, I thought of addressing a question which has been irking me for some time now. Why am I doing this - writing blogs at a time when AI has taken over the writing space? In the era of multiple sources of income, why am I spending my time on something that is guaranteed not to return anything?

My mission from the very beginning has been very straightforward - improve my language and expression of emotions and also carve out a niche for myself and create a space where I don't have to think much before writing. While things around me have changed, I have been committed to my goal and don't see myself giving up that easily. Over time, the methods, the expressions, the words - all have undergone drastic changes. Changes so stark that differentiating between two writings would be a stroll in the park. From writing simple, short sentences to writing complex, long sentences and still making sense. I'd be lying if I said I don't see things from multiple perspectives now.

My goal is to improve my language but how will I improve if not many people read my posts or make suggestions? In reality, not many read my blog - not even 1,000 views in the last 12 months. So, since my goal isn't being achieved I should quit right? The answer is NO. But why is that? Quitting mid-way would be an injustice to my beliefs, to my promise. It would be contrary to all my practices - my practice of not giving up even at the hardest times. I still regret that one time I gave up. Also, it raises the question - is social media engagement, namely likes and comments, the only way to gauge success?

Now, the other part. Have I improved my emotional expressions as a result of writing these long blog posts? The answer isn't as simple as one would imagine. This begs the question - why is that a difficult question? Expression of emotions is such a beautiful thing to experience but at the same time it is very subjective - totally dependent on the mood of the reader. But amidst all this, I've gotten a few clues which paint a brighter picture of my writings. Some comments on my posts, a few exclamations but above all my former English teacher's word of approval. 

While I wouldn't mind some appreciation and validation, what I crave for is the beauty of self-expression - the kind that lies not in the eyes but in the mind of the reader. An apt example would be Indian Classical Music - not preferred by the current generation yet deeply revered by those who appreciate its essence.

With that, I'll rest my case. Hoping that my post reaffirms my goal of writing blogs. Thank You!